I saw you again.

Stationary, staring into space, not knowing that I’m looking back at you.

Nope, you’re not animated.
You’re in a poster.
Your modeling gig put you on some of the largest billboards in Singapore, and your ghost will only relentless haunt me.

I’m numb.

I starred back at you half hoping you’ll stay back.
I starred back at you wondering if you ever missed me.
I starred back at you and I wish you’re happy.
And I starred back at you wondering how it could have been.
And I starred back at myself, as the Black reflective surface show myself me.

How much I have grown over this time.

Maybe I’ll need pills to tell me how to feel. 
Maybe the scars would never heal. 
Maybe I’ll never escape the never-ending strings of depressions. But I’m slowly trying to undo one knot at a time.

We can’t undo the pain we had caused each other.
But I’ll never undo you.
Given a choice, I will still walk with you again. Even though it’s not forever, but 10 years is still a neat fraction of my life.

Even though our whimsical journey has come to an end. 

I hope you’re happy. 
And I want you to be.

And I want to be happy myself too. Eventually.

You Might Also Like

iLight 2022
iLight 2022

Checking out all 20 amazing art installations of iLight

10 Years after: Castaway on the Moon
10 Years after: Castaway on the Moon

A movie review 10 years after rewatching a movie that made me fell in love

Troye Sivan - Strawberries & Cigarettes
Troye Sivan - Strawberries & Cigarettes

I guess heartbreaks taste like you

Leave a comment

Please note, comments must be approved before they are published